Shifting Gears

For the majority of my first year in Portland, I rode a single speed bike. More accurately, I rode a bike that had gears, but it was old, had not been not maintained, and did not like to shift, so I kept it in a gear that worked. When it came time for me to look at a new bike, I didn’t have any experience shifting gears. I knew of the tremendous mechanical advantage they gave riders and I had heard words like “derailleur” and “dual control lever,” but these were not things I had ever considered before.

After quite a few miles of trial and error on my new bike, I decided to check back in at the shop and ask some fundamental questions. My dad taught me to ride a bike in the driveway when I was a little kid, common sense informed me to abide by the same rules as other vehicles on the road, but I had no idea how gears worked. Toggle a switch, the chain moves, it’s easier or harder to pedal. Sure, it’s simple as a concept, but I wanted to know how to engage with this machine purposefully.

So often, irrational fear inhibits us from asking questions about things “we think we should know.” It seems better to play it cool or Google it later instead of looking silly by asking another human being what we perceive to be rudimentary questions. This, however, is when it is most important to ask. As Aristotle tells us,

the beginning is thought to be more than half of the whole, and many of the questions we ask are cleared up by it.
 

I was able to learn more from a 5 minute conversation approached from a beginner’s mind than a year of fighting hills, trial and error, and stubbornness.

Shunryu Suzuki reminds us, “the goal of [zazen] practice is to always keep our beginner’s mind” while acknowledging it is the most difficult thing to do. The beginner’s mind is the point from which we can really learn something, if we allow ourselves to shift from the self-imposed rigidity of fear, resistance, and ego.